12:32 p.m. 2006-04-08
The Bitch says: Watch 'The Weatherman', please
You can't change people. Only open their eyes to the flaws and the downfalls, only prompt them to see it within themselves.
I'm so sick of people proving that life is wasted on the living. I'm so sick of people not thinking, refusing to be aware. No, you don't have to be a rockstar, a top diva, a lawyer, a professor, a brain-surgeon, or even the owner of a (small) business to say you accomplshed something with your life.
Life is TOO SHORT. Every birthday we celebrate, it feels like we have less time. It conciously feels like each year gets briefer and briefer-- and why? Put simple, when your five and waiting on next Christmas, you're waiting for one-fifth of your life-span to go by. When you're twenty, and waiting to be the big 2-1, you're waiting on a comparable sliver of life-- 1/20th.
So as we get older, whatever the career, it feels like there's never enough time, enough days-- months and minutes-- to get done what we want done. And yet, do people actually know... does the majority of the American population know what he or she wants done? Can an individual seperate his desires and aspirations from the crowd that swallows him every day when he hides his head in his locker at school, or sits his slumped form in a wheely-office chair within some suffocating office cubicle? Do they know?
Technology, the media, and the improved devices of communication in our time have made so many things possible. But maybe they don't make life easier at all, maybe they just distract us from our true purposes. We're all so caught up in phone calls, IMs, text messages that we hardly can spare an hour to think. Meditation and other methods of keeping to oneself hardly apply. As I ask my little brother to please think about his life, I don't ask him to question his accomplishments or his mistakes. I just tell him, think about life. Please-- not for me, not to have me shut up, not to satisfy me Please, I'm begging you, stop whatever kid-type things you're doing now and think.
Who are you? I don't know who I am, but I search daily for an answer.
What do you want? It's such a deceptively easy question.
What do you need to do? If possible... let's all prioritize.
Who do you want in your life? It's true that people shape us, but they affect only what's already there, they shouldn't do all the work of creating an entirely new person beneath all the skin.
Please don't think me pious. Don't think as I stand here, that I want to dominate the world with thoughts that could fill some new 'one-size-fits-all' health book. Because I don't stand here to judge. I stand here, asking you to think about your life so you can create your OWN standards, and live to be the best you can be by filling out your own potential.
I do not want you to live trying to measure up to other people's expectations.
Life, truly lived, is a constant search for meaning. There's no one right answer for the meaning of life. There's no universal meaning. There's only unlocking the best in yourself, doing whatever you need to to get that done, letting go of whatever neccessary to see that happen. This potential, this idea of perfection limited only by human will and inhibition-- this essence can take on many names, but it's in seeing it grow and seeing it satisfied that we discover meaning.
So many things, such precious time.
It is my suggestion but not an implied command that anyone reading this should not sit, idly thinking, sorting, prioritizing, wishing, wanting, starving yourself of exploring new venues, new options, new solutions, new teachers. Make a big deal of managing energy, rather than just scheduling time, so you can pay attention, and experience every little thing.
I cannot change you. Nothing and no one can change you-- nothing can improve your chances in this life, there is no luck to be tossed your way, like generous, infrequent scraps to a wandering alley cat. Only you can give your life a purpose. Only you can ask the right questions that will give you the right answers.
The hardest thing is finding those questions, is wording them to apply to you. The hardest thing is accepting the answers and letting them change you in a positive way as they come to you.
It's so SO easy to say things, and to never ever do them.
Living and learning as you go is one way to be able to say that you did something with your life. Not only are you empowered to say that-- you can explain precisely what your accomplishment was... what made it special... what made it worthwhile... and why it meant something, to you.
